I started crying as I sat down and turned on the computer today. It has been that kind of week, very emotional. I can't help but think what if things didn't happen the way they did, what if things were different. I know that losing Gabe is the way it is supposed to be, I know that. I know that he has much more important work to do in heaven and is needed more there than he was here on earth. I can't help to think what if though.
It is really hard to believe that it has been five years though! I have learned so much since then, this experience has changed my life and how I look at life. Looking back I still feel so much gratitude, for my doctor, family, friends, and ward members that helped and carried me and my family when we needed it the most. I am still grateful for the opportunity that I had to be able to go through this loss, to feel the love from our father in heaven throughout everything.
A friend recently shared this song with me, it fits so well with my experiences with Gabe.
this song has always been my Gabe song
3 comments:
I remember telling you 5 years ago that little Gabe was going to teach us great things, and I am so proud of you and all you have learned from him. What a wonderful tradition being in the temple on Sept. 17 will be, and I am so honored to be able to be there with you tonight. That special place holds a very dear place in my heart regarding Gabe too. (Is that this year's flowers?)
I'm so sorry that we can't be there tonight with you. That is a Fabulous idea tough! I love the flowers too, what a beautiful symbol.
Sorry I was not there, Jenn. I did not reliaze this was the day. I love the angel song, and I am amazed at the growth in your little family through this devastating event. The Lord truly has worked a miracle in healing your family. I am so proud of you.
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