five

I started crying as I sat down and turned on the computer today. It has been that kind of week, very emotional. I can't help but think what if things didn't happen the way they did, what if things were different.  I know that losing Gabe is the way it is supposed to be, I know that. I know that he has much more important work to do in heaven and is needed more there than he was here on earth. I can't help to think what if though. 

It is really hard to believe that it has been five years though! I have learned so much since then, this experience has changed my life and how I look at life.  Looking back I still feel so much gratitude, for my doctor, family, friends, and ward members that helped and carried me and my family when we needed it the most.  I am still grateful for the opportunity that I had to be able to go through this loss, to feel the love from our father in heaven throughout everything.  

A friend recently shared this song with me, it fits so well with my experiences with Gabe. 

this song has always been my Gabe song

I've decided to start a new tradition this year, I am going to go to the temple every year on the 17th (or the first closest day if the temples closed), to just be able to sit in the celestial room and think about and reflect on these life changing experiences that I have had. 

School

I just sat down to blog Tommy's first day of school & realized I never did David's!

So, here it is....

David started 5th grade this year!!  He is going to a charter school this year, Explore Knowledge Academy (EKA) and he absolutely LOVES it!!  They go to school Tuesday-Friday from 8-3, he has a male teacher, Mr. Hoon, and each student gets an ipad 2. The first week of school they did testing, he is in the highest math, reading, and english classes! Yikes...sure hope he doesn't expect me to help with homework!

Tommy started preschool today!! He is going M,W,F 3 hours a day.  We have been talking it up, and he has been very hesitant about going.  He has a friend in his class and I thought that might make it easier for him.  He did ok getting dropped off today, he didn't want to let go of my hand to go into the room, I kinda had to push him in and walk away. And yes, I cried as I left him.

Not to be left out, Nathan turned 20 months old last week!!